i'd like to thank adam rawson brown for quoting a few, thought-provoking words via facebook status update and bob marley,
"truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for."
very, very true. too many times i've agonized over the loss of someone. not by death but by indifference. either they didn't like me, or perhaps i felt bad for not liking them. i've felt used and abused. i've felt heartache. i've felt pity. i've felt unnecessary obligation. at this point in the game - i've felt it all.
love, unloved, and loveless.
and it's all so ridiculous. the redeeming factor is that, luckily, i feel just as good alone as i do paired. to me, i'm a hoot and a half, and if you don't know that, well, i do. it's all ok.
and that acceptance gives me comfort. just because i wander alone, i am not lost nor lonely.
but at the same time, if merited, i would suffer for someone that i loved. i'd find reason to remain, allbeit strained or unstable, i know my drive better than anyone else. i know what i'm capable of and what i want out of this life.
and some day, some one will experience exactly that:
a lifetime with me. sometimes we'll suffer. sometimes we'll soar.
isn't that what it's about?
