1.19.2010

did anyone else see heidi montag's appearance on good morning america? ohhh dear, this is difficult. to start - i don't know about you, but i actually like heidi montag. before you dismiss me as some retarded shidiot, hear me out:

i think heidi montag used to be a sweet, funny, lovable girl. someone i'd love to be friends with. as a big fan of the hills (again, do not dismiss me just yet) i always thought heidi was largely misunderstood because, to me, she was such a good girl at heart. if it weren't for that damn spencer pratt...

besides wanting to be best friends with lauren conrad, as she is probably one of the coolest girls in existence, i continuously watched the hills because i truly thought that one day, one episode heidi would finally leave spencer and get back to who she really was. and then life would be ok. i could sleep at night knowing that my lauren and heidi were friends and that both of them would be ok in life.

after watching the gma clip about heidi's plastic surgeries, my heart dropped to my ankles. i can't even explain how saddened i was to see her, her puffy cheeks, her plump lips, her unmoving jawline, her overall face that no longer resembled the heidi i used to see on tv.

it's all gone. she's gone.

it's sad you guys.

heidi - you're in my thoughts.