we've all heard of RTs on Twitter (retweets) so consider this an RP (repost)
i was going through some postings of yesteryears and came across one in particular that always speaks to me. my earthly situation might have changed since the original posting, but the theory behind it remains unchanged.
i'm a very happy person these days, very excited about what's to come, too...however it's good to stop and think every once and again about how beautiful life really is. there's good beautiful and there's bad beautiful. sometimes we can't see the real beauty of our life until we recognize that the ugliness exists, but in the end, life is precious, and so, so beautiful:
RP: "The last few months have been devestatingly hard, perhaps my hardest yet. In this time I've encountered countless obstacles that, for some, I've easily maneuvered past while others have swallowed me whole.
You know me. Well, some of you do. I try to take control over everything in my life. No, I won't try to control your life, I'm just protective of my own. You treat me well? You have a place in my heart. You treat me poorly? Peace out. That's just the way it is. I keep close those whom I know are there for a reason. I feel like there are quite a few people like that in my life, and for that I am truly blessed. But I know that there are those who don't hold my best interest, those who don't think twice...and for you, goodbye.
I can't control how I feel. I can't control what happens to me. I can't control situations that arise. I can't control the lurid thoughts and doubts that haunt me. I can't control my life.
I can control my reaction though. I control what and who my life contains, and sometimes I misjudge, but often I don't. I can control how I tolerate misgivings, or what I can do to get past. I can control what really, truly matters...and let go of the rest. As someone once said, there's a beauty in just letting go. And it is beautiful.
I've let go of an insecurity this week. Humility. I've told a few people how amazing humility is. Humility shows you how to be human. It shows you that no one is perfect, and that no matter what you do to prevent bad things from happening, shit happens.
But embrace imperfection. Keep humility in your heart. Allow yourself to be at the bottom, to learn and grow once again regardless of how old you are, or how much you have already been through. I'm not trying to be preachy, and I'm not trying to make a point. I'm reflecting on what has been a traumatic and stressful period of my life...and though it has caused me sleepless nights and endless uncertainty--I'm blessed that it has given me the opportunity to witness it, the courage to get through it, and the dignity to move on.
Life is so incredibly unyielding, and persistent, but so beautiful. Life isn't controlled and I can't control my life.
And for that, I'm thankful."
