today's ego awareness mission #1: delete facebook pages.
today's ego awareness mission #2: do not panic at low daily blog views & unique site visits now that facebook is gone, my blog link gone. its like virtually singing don't you, forget about me...all gone. oh well. my faithful readers will stick around. but, even if they don't, that's ok too. this blog does more good for me than it ever will for anybody else.
i would be lying if i said my heart wasn't racing a little. but, at least i'm aware. i'm aware of the reasons why i feel like i need facebook (i.e. attention, blog marketing, correspondence, stalking, voyeurism, etc.), as well as the reasons why i do not (at all) need facebook (wasted time in front of a computer, shrinking morality and sensitivity when it comes to privacy, hackers and scams, false delusion of who i am based on what my facebook page depicts, and an alarming false sense of security via facebook friendships). seriously, it's like nicotine, or for some, cocaine.
you need it. you want it. you don't feel good without it.
yikes.
today i've accepted and come to terms with all of the reasons why i "needed" facebook. and boy were those reasons negative. completely negative. negativity is a disease. addiction is a disease. and i can confidently say that both diseases manifest in facebook. there is a tumor between my eyes. the facebook tumor. it never goes away and it's getting bigger every day.
until now.
sure, others will think facebook is positive. those whom say facebook is a platform to stay connected to friends and family, to keep in touch... well that's a false and emotionless dependancy. completely void of sentiment and humanity. facebook is non-tangible. it's not real. for example, instead of calling friends to say happy birthday, we write on their wall. little black characters with no heart and no soul. just something we do to feel better about ourselves. and, instead of spending time with friends and family, we write on their wall and tell them how much we miss them, accompanied by false promises of doing something together, and soon. we both know it doesn't amount to anything. again, we just feel better about ourselves for having done it. its too easy not to do. it's also pathetic, and you know it. you've felt guilty for returning a friend's phone call with a facebook wallpost. once-sacred bonds, be it unintentional or be it a sign-of-the-times, are broken because its easier and less bothersome to check in with a friend via facebook than it is to actually take time out of your life to have lunch, talk in person, buy someone a gift and put in the mail, or to simply stop in and say hello. our world is much too busy for that, right? facebook is an easy button. we love easy buttons.
and, i hate to break this to you, but you're not as popular as think. maybe that's why you have facebook, is so that you can feel a part of something bigger? (as you sit alone in front of your computer.) facebook is a false sense of security. facebook says you have 726 friends. you don't really have 726 friends. not even close. you have a running list of 726 names, names of people you might consider a friend, an acquaintance, an admirer...you may have gone to school with this person, met this person once, or never at all, they could be your best friend or an ex lover, but in the end, all it takes is a first and last name, and boom: friend. adding them to a bloated list of people you may never see or talk to again. they're not all important, but you feel better that they're there. somewhere.
does any of this ring a bell? no? that's ok.
i could hate on facebook all day long, but long rant, short...i am aware of the delusion of facebook, and i don't need it in my life. deactivate. get up from the computer, and let life live through you.
hello 3d world. hello new world. hello ego. hello me.
i'm here.
