Conundrum:
I've been thinking about crushes as of late. I'll keep this short because I know this really only matters to me, but, I've been chewing on a few ideas that strike fear in my heart like lightning bolts from the sky (or is it the ground?)...all due to the inevitable notion (and process) that I'm only getting older as well as emotionally and physically aging beyond my comfort zone.
Here's the issue:
I'm single. And I have zero crushes on applicable, date-worthy people. Zero. The problem, in short, being: all of my soft-hearted crushes are on those whom are not interested in me OR on someone whom I've already dated or have been in a relationship with and, in one way or another, I have deemed not the one.
Why can't I be normal and have a crush on someone who A) likes me and/or B) is potentially right for me?
I can't seem to win. Here I am 27 years old and nowhere near "settling down." I mean, I could easily settle down with myself. Me, myself, and I could live a very happy life...I think I'm funny, charming, and very easy-going. I value the simple things, I stand on moral ground, I have a great family support system, heck I even work out 5 days a week. I don't know what your problem is, but I don't mind myself a bit. I'm achieving career goals, living a comfortable lifestyle...I even own enough furniture, odds & ends, and kitchen cookware to completely fill up a house. Me, a house, the family dog, a white picket fence...it's all within reach. It's all so doable, plausible, all so close.
MINUS MY OTHER HALF.
I'm scurred.
