it's like i want to wake up
and have nothing be the same
as it was

rather how it is in my head
how it's supposed to be
laid out
in front of me

that moment
that feeling
intertwined from ideal to reality

i pictured it

the weather was dark
but i felt safe
at peace
my priorites meant something

other than surviving.

i always see that bed
that headboard
and those white sheets
i'm there

and as i look out the window
nothing stops me

from getting up
the world at my disposal
to see

to live.

now do it.